Happy :-)

     Honestly, I do not think if I have the right to be sad or anything… Haha. I mean, I came to see my family and I came to see a friend. Yes. coming back for my family was worth it but seeing that friend of mine made it even more worth it.

     I only stayed there for like less than 48 hours but those hours that I was with them was  awesome. I knew that I'll be leaving some important matters back home but I've been always there for such a very long time - for the school, church, duties, etc. But really, I was really having second thoughts on going back to Cavite 'cause of those things that are holding me back. But in the end, my decision prevailed and I believed that God has turned his favor on me. 'Cause in the first place, I wouldn't be there if it wasn't for Him. So thank you God for Your permission.

      Being with my family there is incredible. I must say that, that is a place that you'll be feeling really loved and secured. Yeah! We do really have a big family here and seeing them again once in a while makes me happy especially just being with their company. :)

      I love how they trust me on everything -  on money, gadgets, chores, responsibilities, and more. When I'm there they give me things I've never ask them to give me or take me to places I've never ask them to take me. And I'm totally enjoying it 'cause it gives me a chance to explore different places, meet people, and keep the good finds that they gave me. Plus, never to forget the words of wisdom they are imparting to me. They love to share some stories that  really happened on their lives. So I am really learning from their experiences and will gonna make use of those eventually in the future. SO I LOVE THEM VERY MUCH…

     One of the two reasons that I came back here is to meet a friend. So okay, I will not hide his name na or anything 'cause in the first place, no one really reads my blog, second, you do not know him. So okay, it’s a guy and he is Dale. We had this plan to hang out this Sunday 'cause its Cavite City's Fiesta. He came there to Cavite 2 days ahead of me 'cause he lives in Las Pinas for schooling. I actually thought that I am not going to see him anymore 'cause he wasn't txting me for quite some time since I came there, but to my surprise he arrived outsidethe house waiting to pick me up. So there we were, we drove back to his house then attempted to watched a 3 hour movie. But it was an epic fail because for the next 2 hours he'll be going back to Las Pinas. He doesn’t want to go back there yet neither am I. So we had no choice to turn off the laptop and drive off somewhere with Gabby and the driver. So we kinda strolled around the park and drink some cold coffee. Nothing too serious happened, just small talks about his life and mine, then right shortly, they drove me back to my family's place, and did high five's and said goodbye to each other.

      Yeah, I gotta admit, that I was really excited seeing him once again but kinda sad because we had to say goodbyes too early 'cause he had to go back with his family as soon as possible. But on the contrary, I won't gonna deny not to miss him… A lot! But still, I am glad that we met again! ;)
     Shortly, while writing I was kinda interrupted doing this and I've kinda lost my momentum. Because of that, I do not know any more how to end this but let me end this by saying that my happy days are over and want to thank my family, friend, and the God almighty for making me happy, no matter where life takes me. So thank you, you, and You.. ^^

Muli

     Ayun. Ako ay nagmistulang isang talunan muli. Sapagkat may mga bagay na hindi pala pwede. Sapagkat may mga bagay ng gusto mong ipilit pero hindi pala dapat. At dahil doon, napag-alaman ko na hindi pala tayo dapat sige ng sige kasi mahirap pala iyon. Para mo na ring linagay ang sarili mo sa sarili mong hukay.

     Anga akala ko nga ma-re-redeem ko na ang mga noong pagkalugi ko eh. Akala ko lang naman.

     Akala, akala, akala… Puro na lang ako akala, buti nabuhay pa ako. Dahil kung literal ngang nakakamatay ang akala, marahil matagal na akong patay. Sa kabilang banda napagaalaman kong buhay pa naman ako bilang isang hamak na mangangangarap lang. Eh kahit naman kasing anong gawin ko kung hindi naman ito natutupad dahil ayaw itong pahintulutan ng realidad kung kaya’t madalas sila ay nauuwi hanggang sa pangarap na lamang.

Eh ano naman ang magagawa ko? Wala. Kundi…

Manahimik

Mangarap

Maghintay

Magkamali

Manalig

Hanggang sa akoy makasumpong ng tama MULI… :)

My Fault

My fault (is that...):

I trusted easily

I got attach a bit

I disregarded the flaws (lies, secrets, and subtleties)

I poured in a portion of my heart and mind and strength

I let my emotions slip

I knew that I was right that I was wrong

I hoped

I liked

Now, I regret.

What

about

his 

fault? ;)

Happyness and Sadness

     It so sad that my blog says the word HAPPYNESS and I frequently represent it anymore. I kinda feel sorry for myself for being not so happy these days.. But that's life, and that is just plain reality that not all the time we are happy. I know, I know, I should have been posting happy thoughts here and fun experiences but sometimes when a person is too happy they forgot to write things down and starts to be caught up being high and happy. Yeah.. let's just say that Sadness is more of a stronger feeling than Happiness. It lurks in your mind and lingers in your heart or worst, it haunts you down even at your dreams...

     You're probably thinking that I should change my blog's name but nahhh! Never gunna change it. Let's just say that one of my goal now is to be happy and stay happy plus gunna record those things in here. Haha. So okay lemme be a positive person at this moment.. I'm happy right nao because...

-I have 5 days unlimited internet access

-I have eaten a lot of  food for today from Korean to Italian food! :)

-I have the privileged to write down anything that I want here without being dictated by anyone!! Yes, a

  FREEDUMB feeling! :) 

-I have a bed that is so soft and comfty where my back and butt cud lye tonight

-I have a TV usptairs with CATV.. Haha

-I is gunna make a fruit salad tomorrow

-I is gunna eat spagetti later

-I just ate pizza bread just now

-I just again ate my favorite food  in the world earlier: RICE

-I have my God in my heart and in my life. ♥

     Life is not bad after all.. I thank Him.

The SOME of All Things

(A random question and thought of SOME things in life)

ONE

"Why SOME people and SOME things 

are easily taken for granted? 

So sad...

Yet, so true..."

TWO

"SOME things are not just enough to people... 

You exert your time and effort for their happiness... 

Yet they are still unhappy."

THREE

"SOMEtimes... 

We do not know what to prioritize first,

'cause everything seems to look important."

FOUR

"We friend would SOMEtimes

 give our best advices to our friends 

and never ask anything in return 

but for them just not to leave 

nor to forget you... 

And that seems to be enough for you. 

Could not ask for more."
-SCCD

I Hate Things When It Becomes Shitty and All That

     I know that no one will going to read this. And that's okay. I really don't mind at all. 'Coz this post is just all about saying what is purely on my mind cause I just want to let things all out. I've been quite for a very long time.

     You know... Some people are just shitty now a days. Just some...

     And you see, I never intended to be mean, harsh, or to be bitter right nao, 'cause wherever state I am right now of being single is fine. And I know it is going nowhere... for now. I have plans. God's plans. And so, I'm living peacefully and quiet right now and is gradually coping to "life's unfairness" or should I say "human's unfairness?" And so, these shitty beings will suddenly come up to you, and will boast things to you that's gunna hurt you eventually. Like, "WATDAHELL are you saying man?" It is like if you are going to hurt me, do it DIRECTLY not INDIRECTLY 'coz that confuses me more.. Like what are your intentions then? To hurt me with a cute packaging cover-up? Hayyyyy. Can you just be MATURE and THINK NOT OF YOURSELF for a sec?

     When will you ever learn not to hurt people? When will you ever change? 

And for the record man,

     "THINGS ARE DEFINITELY AWKWARD NOW, 'COZ YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE EVERYTHING AWKWARD!!!"

      Then if your happy with whatever state you are right now, then BE HAPPY, SHUT THE HELL UP AND DON'T ACT AS IF I'M NOT IN THE ZONE! 

     Dang. This was shitty!

*I apologize for being this and all. Forgive my words but this is rawness... 



THAT'S ALL I HAFTA SAY.

CMFAO: Crying My Fat Ass Off! (As to LMFAO ;>)

     Yeah! YOU! I missyou!

     *SIGH. DEEP SIGH!

      Oh how I miss blogging! I really do! I miss writing, I miss watching tv, I miss playing, I miss strolling, I miss editing videos, I miss everything! But most important of all is I miss MYSELF! Yeah! You heard me right, I miss being myself. Because of these things I'm doing with school stuffs I haffta set aside all I want, and pursue what the time asks me to do. There are lotsov giant task so I haffta re-arrange, re-organize, and re-plan my schedule which is never followed. Well, just sometimes! Hayyy.

     I'm so sad that with these things I am busy with, I barely catch up with other important things that I value! I wanna do things and say things about them 'coz I really do care 'bout it! But it's just like I have no choice but to follow orders of other people 'coz they say that they know "WHAT IS BEST FOR ME". Do they really know? *SIGH. SIGH. SIGH. COUGH! Lol!

    Whatever! But my point is how about what I want? What I believe to? My priorities? Do they know that I get tired and hurt to? AM I EVEN A HUMAN? Indeed! I. Am. A. Human.

~From Natalie Grant's Twitpic, Instagram, or Lockerz...
I don't know! I do not remember!
But the baby looks cute anyway! That's how I cry! ^___^
COL! ='(

    Now a days, its funny that I found myself crying while walking on the streets which I do not usually do (crying on the streets???) and be seen by random people everywhere splashing waterfalls on my face or tearing inside a movie theater while watching an awesomeness, coolness, and action-packed movie called Transformers 3 with a friend not letting her know that I am crying! What the hell is wrong with me? Hahaha! Well let's just say, that's me! I'm emo these days because of these trashy things I feel, see, hear, smell and taste. Yep! TRASHY!

   So yeah, whatever state you are right now, for example, if you are privileged with money, freedom, talent, and everything, use them wisely! Know your values and fulfill all the things that you want to and the things you believe what is best for you! And if you're like me who is shuffling everyday like the LMFAO's Robot, just be diligent and obedient on following the things you  haffta follow even 'zat  you don't want to.'Coz maybe, just probably, it'll bear it's fruit in time. In God's time.

 Yah know,  I sometimes don't  understand many things but I thought... you don't have to understand everything! Yet, still.. I believe, things happens for a reason! DO YOU? :)

*Cheering you up!  Cheering myself up! LOL!

~SCDD